Does God Command Us To Kill?

photo source: Flickr Creative Commons - artist Patrick Feller

photo source: Flickr Creative Commons – artist Patrick Feller

The older I get, the closer I seem to get to the heart of God. And the closer my heart to God’s, the more it grieves at the taking of life, regardless of species, motive, or biblical occurrences used as justification.

There was a time when I believed the most important lives worth saving were those of the innocent unborn in the womb. But really, how is it that one life is worth fighting for and another is worth ignoring – to the point of death.

As I’ve spent a lifetime climbing over and through religion’s very rocky, rough, volatile terrain and then finally discovering and resting in the bountiful, peaceful, welcoming pastures of God’s radical grace, there’s a syncopation of sorts occurring as my heart seems to beat in rhythm with God’s and I see the world through the eyes of His heart. I am recognizing a newly born love for everything that has breath, regardless of our differences. If everything that has breath is to praise the Lord, then do we not rob the Potter of all the praises due Him by willfully destroying His beloved works of art? (i.e. killing others)

I apologize for my  past apathy toward those who are  facing capital punishment, as well as to those on the receiving side of unnecessary wars. I look forward to a time of peace, when none shall sit in judgment on someone else’s life.


Whose side is Jesus on, anyway?

Photo credit courtesy Flickr artist Elycefeliz

I apologize for insisting that Jesus was on my church’s side and my interpretation of scripture was the only right one, while quietly, smugly, and self-righteously accusing and pointing out the error on the other side. Is disagreement in the church a sin that makes one a winner and another the poor, unfortunate idiot lost to (or at least pitied by) God and all of humanity? What does this say about all of us who are “right” but have a change of heart 25 years down the road?

Is it so difficult to conceive of the possibility that we might ALL be the chosen? And that God really did love all of us (the world) so much that His gift (Jesus) was sent to all of us – not just those who chant a prayer a certain way or brag of the checked-off check list for the only right way to salvation?

About Me …


I am a freelance copy editor and content writer. I’ve assumed this role for both corporate and nonprofit worlds for many years, writing content that brought profit or propaganda for those who bankrolled my efforts. I’m not ashamed of any of my writing and editing, but I do hate that I let my voice die somewhere along the way.

So this blog is just going to be me rediscovering my voice and sharing with you, if you’ll join me. It was initially intended to be just for me, kind of a self-healing tool to apply to this new phase of life I’ve just entered. But I have a feeling what I feel and experience and eventually share might just resonate with others, at least one or two of you; and with that possibility ever so vivid, I hope to be as true with my words as possible and to help guide others along in a helpful, meaningful way.

I will write about a few topics:
Fibromyalgia and my constant quest for healing. No, this will not be me whining and telling you how crappy I feel. But more about the latest health remedies and healing alternatives I come across. Of course I can’t promise I won’t brag here and there if I lose a few pounds, push an extra hour on my bicycle ride or cut my 6-mile walk time by any significant number!

I’ll write about old fears and new personal growth. I’ll share some of my failures from the past 30 years and how I plan to overcome them as I enter my 50’s.

This is a big one for me, because it will be the most difficult; I plan to write about grace and include apologies to all sorts of people groups whom I’ve unwittingly discriminated against in my 35 years of being a Southern Baptist Evangelical Christian. I’ve decided  that God really is love. He’s only love. He loves us ALL, not just the ones who pray the right prayer or go to the right church, in the right denomination, etc. The church-forced rules of Christianity are chains that make God’s freedom gift ever illusive. God is so much easier than we make Him! So in no way will I ever preach to you, telling you what is right and wrong. I will simply share what confuses me and frustrates me, what God speaks to me, and where I see God on any given day (hint: it’s not with my nose planted in the scripture trying my best to memorize it and do everything it says to do, but rather in the picturesque sunset or the crowded, smelly line at the soup kitchen or at the animal rescue shelter). God’s essence is easily recognizable; Jesus even tells us that eternal life can be found when we look not to the scripture but to Him! (John 5:39-40)

I might, eventually, add a section on home renovation projects, big and small. But here’s the deal: I am the world’s worst at finishing a project! Even when I’m finished, I don’t feel like I’m finished, because there might be a piece of trim still missing and needed to finish off the project, but I can’t get to it because I’ve already moved on to a new project! Am I the only one who does this?

And then I will include a “random crap” category; because let’s face it, life is never orderly, and there’s no way that everything I have to say is going to fit in my nice, neat pre-constructed categories!

So thank you ever so much for spending your precious time with me. I value that tremendously and will honor and respect you and give you an authentic experience each time you visit. I would love to hear from you, so don’t hesitate to share your thoughts with me as well. Your opinions are safe here.